Be the Wind: What to Do When Things Aren’t Working

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You know what I love about programming? There are a lot of problems. Every step of the way, you’re taking something that doesn’t do what you want it to and making it work.

As I improved at this I thought, “Cool, I’m getting to be a better programmer.” Lately, I’ve been realizing that the fundamental skills of coding reach far outside the digital world.

In fact, programming has made me a better person, largely because it’s taught me what to do when things aren’t working.

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Sometimes while developing software you come across a bug that you just can’t seem to figure out. You swear it must be a problem with the operating system or programming language and have to remind yourself that this is almost never the case – it’s your problem to fix.

For a programmer, this is the Dip. There are no clear, sensible paths to go down next. You want to give up because things just aren’t working.

What I’ve learned is that in situations like this, the only important thing is to create motion by any means necessary. In other words, changing absolutely anything even remotely connected to what you’re working on.

Delete pieces here and see what happens there, add lines of code even to check parts you assume are working fine. Make changes that you know won’t solve the problem because they still may lead you there.

The only objective is to shake things up and unearth new pathways to explore.

When something isn’t working, put priority on trying new things quickly instead of finding a direct route to the solution. This seems to be a universal tactic; it’s improved every facet of my life I’ve had the insight to apply it to.

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I’m no sailor but I know that when you’re on the open seas and using the wind as your driving force, the problem isn’t going into a headwind – even energy going opposite to your desired trajectory can be channeled in a useful way. The problem is when there is no wind, no motion.

Being stuck is being in a sailboat lost at sea, water stretched to the horizon in all directions, with no wind – except we may have more control over the gale than we think.

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At Chris Guillebeau’s recent booktour stop in New Haven, I found myself making a recommendation I never had before.

Kimberly has a great blog where she writes about education but has been feeling like posting some off-topic articles and wasn’t sure where they fit. She was having some doubts.

The trouble with doubt is that you don’t continue to work while entertaining doubts on the side – they halt your movement and leave you in the middle of the ocean without even a gentle breeze blowing past.

So, despite my general opinion that blogs are about personality and that off-topic posts are often where readers connect most with a writer, I suggested that Kimberly try having a second more personal blog on the side.

I’m not really sure if this would be better or worse, but the outcome itself doesn’t matter. What matters is answering doubt with action, observing what happens and going from there.

(By the way, Kimberly seems to be kickin’ butt even without the second blog!)

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A New Perspective on Change

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We treat change as if it’s something rare, precious and important to get right. We believe that there’s a such thing as ‘good’ change that works in our favor and ‘bad’ change that doesn’t. Change “we can believe in”  implies that there’s some change we can’t.

But, it’s only when we make fewer changes that it becomes more critical for each of them to have positive effects.

When we, instead, start treating change as an ordinary reflex to doubt and stuckness, it has a new purpose.  It becomes less about being right directly and more about exploring the unknown and discovering solutions to problems along the way.

All changes become good, because all of them provide real answers settling our doubts one way or another so that we can move forward.

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Next time you’re frustrated because you can’t seem to wake up on time, can’t quite capture a character in a novel you’re writing, feel uninspired by your latest design or are just unsatisfied with some aspect of your life, start experimenting with changes.

Consider that it may be better to consciously make a few mistakes than to simply stagnate.

You can’t leverage stagnation but a gust in any direction can help you discover what you’ve been looking for all along.

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  • http://www.kimberlygill.com Kimberly

    I love the sailboat analogy, Nicky. And it is interesting to think about good change vs. bad change. I guess (like you) I have always viewed change as forward motion. If the motion takes you down a bad path, reevaluate and pivot, but don’t stop! Sometimes even the “bad path” is a challenge worth defeating.

    p.s. Thanks for the shout out, I surely found some new forward motion after our talk and meeting with all the hard-working unconventionals last week.

  • http://www.kimberlygill.com Kimberly

    I love the sailboat analogy, Nicky. And it is interesting to think about good change vs. bad change. I guess (like you) I have always viewed change as forward motion. If the motion takes you down a bad path, reevaluate and pivot, but don’t stop! Sometimes even the “bad path” is a challenge worth defeating.

    p.s. Thanks for the shout out, I surely found some new forward motion after our talk and meeting with all the hard-working unconventionals last week.

  • http://www.bizchickblogs.com Tia Peterson, BizChickBlogs

    Awesome advice. Change isn’t always good nor is it always bad. It’s just simply the single requirement to get “there” from “here.” There are probably lots of other requirements, too, but without change, it simply won’t happen (well, unless someone picks you up and moves you…)

  • Ryan

    A great friend of mine has a plaque in her house,

    If you want to be happy, put your effort into controlling the sail, not the wind.

    Good post, bro.

  • http://satyacolombo.com Satya, Fierce Wisdom

    Be the wind. Wow, man. Love this. I wish some of my clients would read this so they could understand what really goes in to making websites. You are quite poetic for a developer! I love the metaphor of catching the wind of spirit and passion, and letting it carry you. I’ve never quite looked at it as being the wind itself. That’s even bigger. If you can be the wind, then you’re really relying on your own inner strength. That’s the most significant aspect of getting anything done, i’d say…!

  • http://blog.tumbledesign.com/ Nicky Hajal

    Absolutely! And, there have even been some challenges in my life that I haven’t beaten (yet) that I’m still better off having experienced.Loving the motion Kimberly! :)-Nicky

  • http://blog.tumbledesign.com/ Nicky Hajal

    Absolutely, Tia. And you know, it’s sort of as if people are picking you up and moving you all the time, isn’t it?Things are changing whether we like it or not, so we may as well take control and make changes on our own terms.

  • http://blog.tumbledesign.com/ Nicky Hajal

    I knew I could count on you for some more sea-worthy maritime quotes, FlyRy!

    You know, I just realized you are literally a man of Earth, Sea and Air. What’s next? Space? Lava?

  • Callum

    Hey there. Nice to see some body else who can understand themselves, understand why things happen, and actually somebody who should be seen as inspiration. I’ve read quite a lot from your blog in this last hour, and you think nearly the same way I do, and I’m not saying it’s a good thing, nor it’s a bad thing but personally I see it as unique.

    You want to know why you think like you do? >.> Yeah? Thought so >.> Well anyway, it’s cause you understand who you are, you know exactly what you want out of life and you have a clear mind. I just admire it a lot. What I admire most is that you know the difference between what people can understand, and what we can’t understand, Not in the sense you might be thinking. I mean like ‘What is the meaning of life’, ‘Define Success’, things we can never directly approach with a direct answer. Some people make the path in their life blurry, because they’re trying to do the impossible and hmmm, I don’t really know what I’m trying to achieve by this rant, I just want to talk to someone else who understands.

    I can relate to the dropping out of college too. Well, coming from the UK, college is mainly for 16-19 year olds.

    I just kinda want to talk to you by like, email or something >.> I just haven’t been able to relate my thoughts with any of my friends or anybody before, which is why your blog has somewhat been inspiration 😀 You just like to write, about your thoughts, clearing your mind out.

    Yeah I’m weird. 😀

    Well, All that ^^^^? Don’t ask, cause I really don’t know.

    One-x-@live.co.uk if you’d like a chat sometime.

    Callum~

  • http://blog.tumbledesign.com/ Nicky Hajal

    Callum, Thanks so much for the kind words and I’m so glad that you can relate! One of the joys in putting work out there, I’m learning, is that it helps connect me to others that think in the odd ways I often do.I agree very much with your assessment of our thought process. I would say it’s something like this:- Knowing who you are at the core, in a very general way. “I am a builder, making things satisfies me to the core.” “I am a performer, I am never as happy as I am when I’m in front of a group, entertaining”, etc.- Knowing what you want, fractally. My life is composed of wants, that are themselves compose of more wants. I want to build things. I want to build this specific thing. I want this component of it to function this way. A deep understanding of what you want really helps give direction.- What you call a clear-mind I would call ‘accepting conflict’. I have anything but a clear mind, because in any situation, approached objectively, there are so many potential ‘truths’. Instead of hastily picking one, I find it more interesting to accept the conflict and explore.I think maybe that’s what you’re getting at, too, when you talk about what’s understandable. The mental fight to come to grips with these amorphous ideas is often what makes it so hard to gain any ground on them at all. Admitting we can’t know for sure and approaching them with curiosity at least starts moving us in the right direction.I’d love to hear more about what you’re up to in life, what you’re excited about and what you’re not sure about. Feel free to email me – nhajal at gmailBut, if you’re down, continuing the conversation here could be cool too, so others can join in if they happen to stop by.Thanks so much for all your thoughts!-Nicky

  • http://blog.tumbledesign.com/ Nicky Hajal

    It’s interesting, Satya, I hadn’t ever thought about it this way either until I wrote the post. The wind metaphor didn’t exist at all until I started getting the ideas out.Do you have similar experiences when writing? Starting off with a general idea that then materializes as you go? To me, this is one of the magical elements of writing consistently but also one of the potentially scary ones. “What if no interesting thoughts come to me today?!”Again, that image of a sailboat in the middle of the ocean with no wind comes to mind. I guess I need to re-read my own post in those moments? Ha :)Never thought of myself as a poetic programmer, but I have to say I quite like it!-Nicky

  • Callum

    Thanks for the reply 😀

    I used to understand myself, well, at least that’s what I thought. I could keep my mind clear and ‘control’ my mind and my thoughts as I please, such as the past., if there’s something I don’t want to remember, I could simply just… literally delete the memory. My mind was definitely clear, I knew what I wanted from life, in the present. To me to assess life in the future, to assess my needs and wants, I just simply wouldn’t do that, I’ve always been one for living in the present.

    And there’s more to life through my eyes than just your wants. People can often think a certain path makes them happy, they think that they know what they want, what they need out of life, but strangely enough, it’s like we are set on a misty path when it comes to our wants. You can’t see too far ahead and you never know quite what you want out of life until you understand yourself deep down, basically the mist clears.
    More people than I could imagine probably get mixed up with what truly makes them happy and what they think makes them happy, it’s a human flaw I guess.

    I think one way to get around such questions. Like ‘Define success’, I think Philosophy, is more about understand yourself, than anything else in some respects. I strongly believe in ‘You have to understand yourself before you can truly understand anything’. People may say to that, “Well I passed school didn’t I?” I can’t find the right words to describe what I mean right now either, So I’ll leave it for another time maybe.

    What I’m up to in life? Pursuing happiness. Recently dropped out of college because just the.. school life? It was making me depressed and for the first time in my life I decided to defend my happiness and stick up for myself. No regrets what so ever.

    I know you don’t want my whole life story >.> But I’ll tell you anyway.
    On the 25th July, I met the love of my life on the internet. Yeah I’m used to all the “You’re too young to know love” (Oh yeah, I’m 16 by the way.) “You haven’t even met how can you be so sure” “You’re stupid, it’s just infatuation” Yeah I’ve pretty much heard it all, but I honestly don’t care for what others have to say. I know what I’m feeling for this one girl, it’s just.. it’s love. There’s no denying the feeling at all. And we’re getting married – we already have a date – and spend our lives together. So to answer your question? I’m excited for the future, and quite recently I’ve got lost in the future quite a bit too much for my liking.

    How do I describe this… I could understand myself, until I fell in love. It completely changed me, the way I think, the way I am. You could have asked me before, the same question -What are you excited for – and honestly couldn’t have answered that question or perhaps, what do you want out of life? I really had no thoughts about that, maybe I should have, maybe I shouldn’t have. But now, all I want from life is for her to happy.

    Things I’m not sure/worried about? I don’t honestly worry. It’s a waste of time. I could write a lot about worrying and why it’s bad, but I’ll save you the time. I don’t regret leaving education at all either. I’m going to start freelancing in graphic design.

    Pro tip for people: Love. You can’t fricking understand it, so stop trying okay? It’s just one of those things, the more you try to understand it, the more confused you get. Some things, we’re just not meant to understand.

    Anyway, enough about my life now, how is yours? (:

    Callum~

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